I Just Can't Let Go!
Before facebook, before twitter, before this blog (you get the jist) the thing in my life was Fotki. Through pictures, I was able to document my life stories. Well one day, my roadie Juliette was looking through the pictures and called up to ask if I still had this shirt she saw in the pictures. Of course I did. After all, didn’t she have all her pajamas from back in college? Why would I get rid of it? It might come back into style and then I could label it vintage.
Well last night, everything sort of came to a head. When I got in, suddenly all the clutter in the living room got to me. You see, I am generally a clean person. Scratch that, I am a neat freak but here is what my problem is: I have a lot of shit. Seriously. If Target introduces one more bath collection, I might shoot myself. I have every one and all the damn trinkets to go with it. How many toothbrush holders do you really need son? All of this junk is tucked away quite nicely in little nooks and crannies in the house. So to the average visitor, my place looks clean. That is until you open up the cabinet above the coat closet. Watch out below!!!
So because the house is getting revamped, (did I mention I hate remodeling) all of my secret hiding places are no longer a secret and everything is accumulating everywhere. I was so disgusted last night I felt like throwing everything out. Who was I kidding? If I throw something out, I will get up in the middle of the night and take it out the trash and put it in a new place. A new place equates a fresh start for me. LOL
Now let’s get back to last night. Mr. Sowell keeps a car seat in his car for those very rare occasions he takes Kayden somewhere. (In case you are wondering why he only has one car seat and we have more than one kid):
- Kennedy is too young to travel with him just yet (without me). Travel with daddy age is when the children can speak so he knows there is a problem if one arises.
- He could never handle the two of them without me(plus M’khai because why would Kayden be travelling anywhere without M’khai)
Bottomline-I am superwoman and he is a mere mortal and powerless.
Anyhoo, the carseat was out of his car, so I asked him to move it back to his car so I could get some space. LMAO. One carseat vs. 20 other items consisting of large bags filled with my Target bath collections, luggage (some empty, others filled with clothes from last and prior years) boxes filled with lord knows what and a host of other items. He went off! He picked up the car seat and stuck it in a corner which drove me bananas. I need that fricking corner!! How else am I going to clear all this mess up. We have a shed and a storage closet (that he cleared out a few weeks ago). His specific instructions were to not fill the storage closet with any of my junk and at the time I was cool with it because I was finally getting a handle on all the junk. Getting a handle means renting out that storage unit at EZ storage until I get a handle on the mess at home. So all together, we have a ton of space that is overfilled with things I can’t let go of.
My feet grew after my kids, why do I still have shoes that my toes cannot fit in? Unless that is going to be a style soon, it is safe to say that I can get rid of them. I have not worn a size 6 since my tabanca with an ex-boyfriend, why do I have boxes of clothes in that size? Size 6 is not even a good look for me so it is safe to say those can go too. I can’t let go!! The thought is making me cringe. I had a “sale” with my girlfriends 2 years ago and auctioned off my items to the loudest person that said “I want it” before someone else. I felt good after that cleansing, but I went right back out and bought some new shit to take up the space the old stuff left. Some of my stuff is quality stuff. I don’t know how to fix this.
I will try though. I will start with the kids clothes. This weekend I will pack up all of Kayden’s and Kennedy’s clothes to give away. I will start with them because there is no one to wear their hand me downs. Kayden can at least wear M’khai’s stuff. Then on Monday I will work on me. I will get rid of it if it can’t fit or if I have not seen it in years.
I’ve been following June Ambrose on twitter and she says you should buy a few timeless pieces that you could pass down. I bought some of those items, this past week at Saks and Neiman. They are still home in bags because there is no where to put them. *~*
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LOL…ahhh the infamous car seat. I suggest another Sowell swap meet. I’m sure Tash and I won’t mind lol….I’m a size 6 (post tabanca size 6)….DO NOT THROW THEM OUT I’M COMING… But I too have a thing about letting go…I actually found a term paper from 3 semesters ago. Not healthy. But they’re things you just don’t want to part with….even old emails from 2005 sit in my storage box. Ask me why.
My room right now…post semester room…looks like a tornado hit it and it disgusts me. I don’t look forward to the organizing and cleaning, its close enough to remodeling.
Now you have me thinking about my clutter…hmmm. My grandma always said, if your closet is a mess, so is your life. Get to it! I got some serious cleaning to do this weekend.
Every time I read your posts, I feel like I’m right there. It’s always hard to get rid of things because I’m sure each item has a story & a memory behind it.
Yes P is right have another auction we will be there.& what’s left we can bag up for donation.. I’m still using item from the 1st one. As far as Kayden’s items do remember your lil cousin Elijah… that’s a start…. or post items on any site for those that view them can by them or have a garage sale. just a few suggestions. don’t get rid of anything yet we will be there soon.